Sorry for stopping the blog for quite sometime.
I am confused.. trying to figure it out.... till now, there is no answer.
I hope I can get over it smoothly.
Everything is good for me now and I don't want to have any changes.
Somehow, the problem is myself..... I will not blame anyone.... I would bear for any consequences..
and again, hope for a miracle...
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Sunday, July 19, 2009
Friday, April 3, 2009
Lover and Soulmate
Something has came across my mind.
Everyone can find their lovers but not easy to find a soulmate.
Lover, someone that you love and he loves you. However, it doesn't mean that both of you have the same interest to share together. Love is just the feeling that make you care about the person. Love is a feeling that make you to contribute or sacrifice.
Well, the words - Sacrifice.. I believe everyone has heard about "there is always sacrification in love"...
Sacrifice means, doing things that you are not willing to.. but you just do it to make another person happy.
But for soulmate, this is someone who naturally has the same interest with you. Someone who can share many things, thoughts together. They almost have the same thoughts, same interests, and do things together. On top of that, there is love between both of them.
sounds wonderful. However, I believe, It's hard to find someone like that in life.
People have different background. Different families, different races, different countries etc etc.......Even siblings from the same home can have different ways of living and thoughts.
To me, it's difficult to find someone to have the same thoughts/interests as you. In relationship, there is always a certain level of tolerance. Both parties try to understand and tolerate ea other in order to go further. and once communication breakdown, the relationship will get fragile. sad to say that when relationship has gone up to certain no. of years, the hot feeling of Love should have gone. What's left is the commitment and responsibilities...
We can see in many old couples. However, they might feel happy and contented after they have their own family, seeing children gone up bla bla bla... something might be lacking between the couples. the focus will be more on the family...
Somehow, I feel it's quite tiring huh.... but that's life.. and what kind of life you want to choose....
Well, if you can really find your soulmate, that is the best thing in relationship. At least, many things are mutual to ea other and it is easier for a relationship to grow.
Nothing is perfect... No one is perfect in this world. There is always a 80/20 rule in everything.
Anyway, just some of my general thoughts.... what do you think? :)
(after taking GAMSAT, I am more like doing Part II paper now, written communication.. the topics are something like above.. interesting.. )
Lover and Soulmate
Everyone can find their lovers but not easy to find a soulmate.
Lover, someone that you love and he loves you. However, it doesn't mean that both of you have the same interest to share together. Love is just the feeling that make you care about the person. Love is a feeling that make you to contribute or sacrifice.
Well, the words - Sacrifice.. I believe everyone has heard about "there is always sacrification in love"...
Sacrifice means, doing things that you are not willing to.. but you just do it to make another person happy.
But for soulmate, this is someone who naturally has the same interest with you. Someone who can share many things, thoughts together. They almost have the same thoughts, same interests, and do things together. On top of that, there is love between both of them.
sounds wonderful. However, I believe, It's hard to find someone like that in life.
People have different background. Different families, different races, different countries etc etc.......Even siblings from the same home can have different ways of living and thoughts.
To me, it's difficult to find someone to have the same thoughts/interests as you. In relationship, there is always a certain level of tolerance. Both parties try to understand and tolerate ea other in order to go further. and once communication breakdown, the relationship will get fragile. sad to say that when relationship has gone up to certain no. of years, the hot feeling of Love should have gone. What's left is the commitment and responsibilities...
We can see in many old couples. However, they might feel happy and contented after they have their own family, seeing children gone up bla bla bla... something might be lacking between the couples. the focus will be more on the family...
Somehow, I feel it's quite tiring huh.... but that's life.. and what kind of life you want to choose....
Well, if you can really find your soulmate, that is the best thing in relationship. At least, many things are mutual to ea other and it is easier for a relationship to grow.
Nothing is perfect... No one is perfect in this world. There is always a 80/20 rule in everything.
Anyway, just some of my general thoughts.... what do you think? :)
(after taking GAMSAT, I am more like doing Part II paper now, written communication.. the topics are something like above.. interesting.. )
Friday, March 27, 2009
L.O.V.E
I love this song recently. Always listen to it when I am driving. I hope I can sing as well as the singer. :) Hope you will like it as well.
It's so sweet! :)
*Please off the sound of the background music before playing this video
L.O.V.E - Olivia Ong
Friday, March 20, 2009
3 Quizzes and same results!
I took 3 different quizes in facebook and gave me almost the same results.
Shooky took Your ideal job. quiz and the result is Doctor/Nurse.You are keen on finding a cure, and enjoy saving lives and helping people. When someone is hurt you are first to help out and diagnose the problem, so grab the gloves & get operating!
Shooky took Dream Job quiz and the result is DoctorYou can handle anything and love to help. Your smart and always know what you're doing.
Shooky took in 5 years time you will be.... quiz and the result is you will be very sucessfull!you will be a very sucessful person. somthing along the lines of a doctor or even a member of parlement will your intelectual skills.
Tomorrow will be my GAMSAT exams. Yes. a trial for the mecidine admission test to Australia.
Wish myself best of luck and hope my DREAM come true. :)
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Random
I can't bear of the weather. It's very hot! Especially during the lunch time. I think my sweat flew from my back to my pants!!
I can't even hold my car steering and gear! It was burning. Everyone in my car was shouting. When I pushed the Outside Temperature thermometer button of my car, it shown 39 Degree!
It's horrible. I hope tonight I can have a good night sleep...
I can feel that my skin begins to feel itch.. arggggh...
Today I learn something: Oggi Fa Caldo! (Today is Hot)
Hope i can learn some italian everyday... :)
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Few more weeks to go before leaving to Sicily. I had a happy dream yesterday which I went to Venice! I was alone coz my sis can't afford to buy the ticket to fly from Malaysia to Venice.
I rented a boat and row by myself, visiting different small islands in Venice. Even I visited the Glass Musuem.. hahaha. It was so small...
I must be thinking of going to Venice too much... The ticket from Sicily to Venice is about SGD400 and I plan to go for 2D 2N maybe... Only I afraid is alone.. where I will reach there at night.. ermmm... scared!
Hope to get somebody to go with me...... Venice is really my dream place beside Paris & Santorini.
I should start to plan for the trip next week then... :)
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Well well, the nice flowers are all wittered from the trees around NTU. I misses taking pics with my camera..
I miss the nice scenery few days ago.. it really brighten up my days...
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This saturday. will be having my exams... I almost study until saturated level... will take a serious study on this Friday definitely. Last preparation to face the real war!!
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These days, I have been very busy in the office. I am learning new things everyday on the tester programming platform. Modification of program... At least something to look for everyday.
However, I have some hard time as I am still working on production. 2 technologies and attending meetingsssss, reporting...
How I wish I can full time concentrate on programming so that I can improve fast and contribute to the team..
hahahha..talking about this, I suppose not someone who is so interested in my job.. not someone who like to contribute to the company... but one motivation for me to do this should be the challenge. Somehow, I like something new & challenging... Anyway, I don't know when will this "fire" will put off.. haha
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Arggh... molto caldo!! I need to go for a bath now.... ciao!
I can't even hold my car steering and gear! It was burning. Everyone in my car was shouting. When I pushed the Outside Temperature thermometer button of my car, it shown 39 Degree!
It's horrible. I hope tonight I can have a good night sleep...
I can feel that my skin begins to feel itch.. arggggh...
Today I learn something: Oggi Fa Caldo! (Today is Hot)
Hope i can learn some italian everyday... :)
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Few more weeks to go before leaving to Sicily. I had a happy dream yesterday which I went to Venice! I was alone coz my sis can't afford to buy the ticket to fly from Malaysia to Venice.
I rented a boat and row by myself, visiting different small islands in Venice. Even I visited the Glass Musuem.. hahaha. It was so small...
I must be thinking of going to Venice too much... The ticket from Sicily to Venice is about SGD400 and I plan to go for 2D 2N maybe... Only I afraid is alone.. where I will reach there at night.. ermmm... scared!
Hope to get somebody to go with me...... Venice is really my dream place beside Paris & Santorini.
I should start to plan for the trip next week then... :)
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Well well, the nice flowers are all wittered from the trees around NTU. I misses taking pics with my camera..
I miss the nice scenery few days ago.. it really brighten up my days...
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This saturday. will be having my exams... I almost study until saturated level... will take a serious study on this Friday definitely. Last preparation to face the real war!!
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These days, I have been very busy in the office. I am learning new things everyday on the tester programming platform. Modification of program... At least something to look for everyday.
However, I have some hard time as I am still working on production. 2 technologies and attending meetingsssss, reporting...
How I wish I can full time concentrate on programming so that I can improve fast and contribute to the team..
hahahha..talking about this, I suppose not someone who is so interested in my job.. not someone who like to contribute to the company... but one motivation for me to do this should be the challenge. Somehow, I like something new & challenging... Anyway, I don't know when will this "fire" will put off.. haha
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Arggh... molto caldo!! I need to go for a bath now.... ciao!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Something that made me touched....
This song has touched my heart..
Love the movie, and the song, "She"
Hope you will like it too.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Love Actually
Finally I have time to watch the movie:
loveactually
There are many stories in this movie and each one is so true.
It reflects the real life relationship in this world.
Husband and wife, father and son, boyfriend, girlfriend, colleagues, friends etc.
Love Actually is Everywhere.
The world is beautiful because there is....
LOVE
Friday, February 6, 2009
Something has changed
Everything is changing, and the only thing that is not changing is "CHANGE"
Things can be changed very fast.
I realised something has changed in a sudden recently.
I am not used to it. I miss it!
Anyway, it could be expected to be this way and I gonna move on.
I have no regret and cherish the moment a lot.
It is one of the sweet memories in my life.
Take care :)
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Strong or Weak
I am wondering, what kind of person I am when talk about feeling/relationship:
- a superwoman (strong externally & internally)?
Well, definitely NOT!!
- Strong externally but weak internally?
sometime I would stay very cool and feel like nothing can hurt me easily. such as: "Is that so important??", "I can stay with or without a relationship!!", "Anything can be solved easily".. Even try to be cool to laugh at ppl who is soooo sentimental.. haha!
In fact, I am easily get touched by the little sweet acts, appreciate the nice words, small gifts from someone etc etc.. I admit that I can easily cry. Not saying that crying out like a kid, just that tears will run out from my eyes when watching some touching movies, thinking back of the old memories, someone is leaving me and even on the way back from KL (just miss home).
- Weak externally but strong internally?
I could be very weak because I want people to listen to my feeling and care about me. Normally this would apply to someone that is close to me.
However, when problem really comes, I think I will face and cope with it by myself. I can cope with the pain and get throught it.
No one can actually help me because I always have my answer. Some decision could be hurting but we just have to face it.
Conclusion:
Am I a Strong (ex) & weak (in) or Weak (ex) & Strong (in)?
- a superwoman (strong externally & internally)?
Well, definitely NOT!!
- Strong externally but weak internally?
sometime I would stay very cool and feel like nothing can hurt me easily. such as: "Is that so important??", "I can stay with or without a relationship!!", "Anything can be solved easily".. Even try to be cool to laugh at ppl who is soooo sentimental.. haha!
In fact, I am easily get touched by the little sweet acts, appreciate the nice words, small gifts from someone etc etc.. I admit that I can easily cry. Not saying that crying out like a kid, just that tears will run out from my eyes when watching some touching movies, thinking back of the old memories, someone is leaving me and even on the way back from KL (just miss home).
- Weak externally but strong internally?
I could be very weak because I want people to listen to my feeling and care about me. Normally this would apply to someone that is close to me.
However, when problem really comes, I think I will face and cope with it by myself. I can cope with the pain and get throught it.
No one can actually help me because I always have my answer. Some decision could be hurting but we just have to face it.
Conclusion:
Am I a Strong (ex) & weak (in) or Weak (ex) & Strong (in)?
Friday, January 2, 2009
Kau Cim - Fortune Telling
Before I start this post, I wanna explain what is "kau cim" coz there is no exact words for this.
Tools:
Tools:
- Cim Bucket (Chinese: 簽筒 pinyin qian1 tong2, cim tong) A long cylindrical bamboo cup or tube.
- Kau Cim Sticks (Chinese: 簽, cim) are the flat sticks which are stored in the tube. Generally made of bamboo, they resemble wide, flat incense sticks, and are often painted red at one end. A single number, both in Arabic numerals and in Chinese characters, is inscribed on each stick, There are usually a total of 100 sticks in the cup, although the Chi Chi Sticks variation sold in the USA for fortune telling has only 78 sticks. Each stick has a different number on it, and no two are alike.
I went kau cim in Oct at a temple. When I got the 'cim', it saying that there will be a big change in my life and it's a good change. At that moment, I can't think of what can make this change by thinking of my current routine lifestyle.
And NOW I know WHY!!!!! :D I hope it will be real.
I will be taking GAMSAT in March. So if everything goes well, will it be a change in my life? Going for medical studies and shifting to Australia.???!!!!
Wow... I hope this is the change!! :D
I was having insomnia yesterday and thinking of soooo many things. One of them is about this. When I woke up, I feel that there is HOPE in my life..
*maybe I am thinking too much or too supertitious, but at least it has made my day ;)*
Thursday, January 1, 2009
My feeling on 1st day of 2009
Today is 1 Jan 2009!!
It's raining heavily outside. My plan is to read up some chapters for Chemistry and Biology. but I feel down. I hope I can follow my plan for today.
There is always Ups and Downs in life. I wonder if the "downs" is just created by our own? Or we choose to be down? The kind of feeling is really uncontrollable. I wish to be happy as usual, but something has made me confused. Perhaps, I am feeling something's wrong? What am I talking bout here?
Well, like what father said: "whether it is happy or sad, we still need to move on. So why not we choose to be happy?"
I should be very satisfied with my life, I have a warm & happy family, a husband, many friends that treating me good & enjoy lots of time with me. However, I am someone who like to take up challenge and excitement. I would never satisfy.
So till now, I still don't wanna settle down. I always have plans, wishes and dreams in my mind. I will never have time to settle down and don't really know what I want (character of Libra). I don't even know by when I can achieve all my plans. Sometime I start to think that I am kinda selfish.
I received one new year sms yesterday:
"Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive Quickly, Kiss slowly, Love Truly, Laugh Uncontrollably & Smile Always."
The phrases interpreted that we should live our life to the fullest with no regret.
Am I doing it now???????
It's raining heavily outside. My plan is to read up some chapters for Chemistry and Biology. but I feel down. I hope I can follow my plan for today.
There is always Ups and Downs in life. I wonder if the "downs" is just created by our own? Or we choose to be down? The kind of feeling is really uncontrollable. I wish to be happy as usual, but something has made me confused. Perhaps, I am feeling something's wrong? What am I talking bout here?
Well, like what father said: "whether it is happy or sad, we still need to move on. So why not we choose to be happy?"
I should be very satisfied with my life, I have a warm & happy family, a husband, many friends that treating me good & enjoy lots of time with me. However, I am someone who like to take up challenge and excitement. I would never satisfy.
So till now, I still don't wanna settle down. I always have plans, wishes and dreams in my mind. I will never have time to settle down and don't really know what I want (character of Libra). I don't even know by when I can achieve all my plans. Sometime I start to think that I am kinda selfish.
I received one new year sms yesterday:
"Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive Quickly, Kiss slowly, Love Truly, Laugh Uncontrollably & Smile Always."
The phrases interpreted that we should live our life to the fullest with no regret.
Am I doing it now???????
Monday, December 29, 2008
What's my birthdate means??
You never live your life in the way others want you to. You are an independent individual who loves challenges and excitement. You are ready to ace with the result of your decision. You are usually the one your friends count on.
Your Love, Because you love excitements, you occasionally get involved in forbidden love affairs. You may fall in love with a married person and no one can stop you from making progress. You are very charming, although you might not realize it.
True??
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Virgo? Libra?
My Birthday: 23 September
For 29 years, I have been believing my zodiac is Virgo. However, I got to know that I am a Libra too. Just that I can't accept it as I think that my characters match with Virgo.. Few days ago, I got to know that the correct one is Libra...
some people says, you are a Virgo + Libra and you will have both zodiac characters. But after I read about Libra, i started to believe it.....
Here's the check list on the personality traits of both zodiac in me:
Virgo
Analytical / critical / insightful
Precise / meticulous
Orderly / methodical
Practical / pragmatic
Mental / intelligent / inquiring
Responsible / reliable
Perfectionistic
Shrewd / witty / clever
Conservative / conventional
Refined / polite / well mannered
Hygienic / clean
Reserved / cool / undemonstrative
Libra
Diplomatic / compromising however possibly manipulative
Cooperative
Fair / balanced / impartial
Idealistic (in relationships)
Charming
Sociable and easy-going,love having people around them
Indecisive / changeable
Peace loving
Elegant / graceful
Refined / artistic / good taste
Pleasure oriented
Gentle
Sensitive to others
Analytical, clear-minded and logical, however still manages to be gullible and influenceable, naive
Kind
Cheerful
Romantic, strongly interested in the opposite sex
Flirty / frivolous however loyal in marriage
After reviewing it, I think I am more on Libra... Yes... I am a Libra!
For 29 years, I have been believing my zodiac is Virgo. However, I got to know that I am a Libra too. Just that I can't accept it as I think that my characters match with Virgo.. Few days ago, I got to know that the correct one is Libra...
some people says, you are a Virgo + Libra and you will have both zodiac characters. But after I read about Libra, i started to believe it.....
Here's the check list on the personality traits of both zodiac in me:
Virgo
Analytical / critical / insightful
Precise / meticulous
Orderly / methodical
Practical / pragmatic
Mental / intelligent / inquiring
Responsible / reliable
Perfectionistic
Shrewd / witty / clever
Conservative / conventional
Refined / polite / well mannered
Hygienic / clean
Reserved / cool / undemonstrative
Libra
Diplomatic / compromising however possibly manipulative
Cooperative
Fair / balanced / impartial
Idealistic (in relationships)
Charming
Sociable and easy-going,love having people around them
Indecisive / changeable
Peace loving
Elegant / graceful
Refined / artistic / good taste
Pleasure oriented
Gentle
Sensitive to others
Analytical, clear-minded and logical, however still manages to be gullible and influenceable, naive
Kind
Cheerful
Romantic, strongly interested in the opposite sex
Flirty / frivolous however loyal in marriage
After reviewing it, I think I am more on Libra... Yes... I am a Libra!
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Family
We were in a small, warm and happy family.
We were not rich, but we always feel very contented. We saved, earned, and buy something that we yearn for. Always we can't get things easily as we want. So we precious everything we own.
Why would I wanna mentioned this today? Cause I know a bad tempered person... and I don't know why????!!! Throwing stuffs, easily get angry, impatient, reckless driving, shouting, abusing...
Are these a good way to release the temper?? Do you think that this can solve the problem? It's really a LOSE-LOSE situation... This is very unhealthy..
Still figuring out the way to solve this problem.. and I feel fear.. :S
What I can do now it's to be calm, keep quiet and think (or maybe don't think??)
We were not rich, but we always feel very contented. We saved, earned, and buy something that we yearn for. Always we can't get things easily as we want. So we precious everything we own.
Why would I wanna mentioned this today? Cause I know a bad tempered person... and I don't know why????!!! Throwing stuffs, easily get angry, impatient, reckless driving, shouting, abusing...
Are these a good way to release the temper?? Do you think that this can solve the problem? It's really a LOSE-LOSE situation... This is very unhealthy..
Still figuring out the way to solve this problem.. and I feel fear.. :S
What I can do now it's to be calm, keep quiet and think (or maybe don't think??)
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